The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.
~ Lamentation 3: 22 – 24
WARNING: disconnected rambling ahead..
I am having a bad day.
No, really….I am.
There are things in my life that are spinning out of control faster than I can blink. Today has been a bad day and I really don’t know why.
As far as circumstances go, I’ve had way worse days. The day my x told me he didn’t love me anymore…that was a bad day. The day that I caught the x with his boyfriend…that was a bad day. The day my grandma died…that was a bad day. The day that the school for which I was teaching told me they were not renewing my contract….that was a bad day.
Today is nothing like THOSE bad days.
How am I going cope with a bad day? Well, first of all, I’m writing it out, which seems to put it in perspective. I found out my house is empty, so I’m fixing to go home after work and maybe bang around on the piano. I would go out for a run, but I really do not feel well, which is probably contributing to my bad day.
Meanwhile, I know that this is temporary. I know that God still loves me. I know that a pity party is wrong.
This is STILL the day that the LORD has made. I need to rejoice and be glad in it…
OK. Things I am thankful for:
I have a job
My church is way-cool
God still loves me
I am literate
I have access to a computer and other luxuries, such as a coffeepot, a washing machine, running water (that is clean) and a stove
My house is paid for and the roof does not leak
My dog, Pickles
My children have jobs (even though they need to learn to manage their own lives and money)
No. that’s negative. MY CHILDREN HAVE JOBS. That’s better.
My children have good hearts and have grown to be wonderful, young adults.
I can play piano
My neighbors are nice
I have a friend I can call on the phone
I have access to corrective lenses so I can see
I have a vehicle that runs
My brain works
Thursday’s Turkey Trot race shirts that I picked up today are cool looking
I am not on crutches
I am not in the hospital
No immediate family member is in the hospital
Both of my parents are living
I have clothes in my closet
My husband loves me
I am educated
I have a nice office
My fingernails are the same length right now
I am able to help others
Campus is deserted today and will be tomorrow
I have Thursday and Friday off (and will leave early tomorrow)
Picket Fences!! You ladies rock
So, yes, the list can go on and on and on. I think I will go home, fry bacon for Thursday’s green beans, make a new batch of homemade chapstick, take out my contacts, put on my bifocals (my eyes are dry), play piano….and rest.
Even with a bad day, God is good. God is good even when I am not.
So, that is what is going on in my head today. I don’t know if this is particularly divorce related….so I might move my own thread.
God is good. God is good. God is good!
Praise God that His mercies are NEW every morning!!